Unbearable Agony: A Personal Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Autumn Nielsen
Autumn Nielsen

A dedicated health educator with over 10 years of experience in medical training and wellness advocacy.